birthday girl

Ellerie is six today. I can't really believe how old she is already. I'll never forget her saying how she never wants to grow up. I told her it would be ok, because I never did. Happy birthday!


There was a garden
in the beginning
Before the fall
Before Genesis

There was a tree there
A tree of knowledge
Sophia would insist
You must eat of this

Tori Amos - Original Sinsuality

So when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree desirable to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate. She also gave to her husband with her, and he ate.

Genesis 3:6



the seed has been planted
the roots forming
the tree growing
i'll reach my branch to you
to pick you up
i hope you grab on
and get off the ground
out of the dirt
eat the fruit
stop wasting it
you'll gain the knowledge you've casually left behind


set the woods on fire

Art In Manila is one of my favorites! This video maintains my girl-crush for Orenda. And who else thinks Corey should wear this outfit more often?

They go on tour in a few days. Hopefully you can catch them on one.

Sep 23 2007 8:00P
Webster Hall New York, New York
Sep 25 2007 8:00P
Trocadero Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Sep 26 2007 8:00P
9:30 Club Washington DC, Washington DC
Sep 27 2007 8:00P
9:30 Club Washington DC, Washington DC
Sep 28 2007 8:00P
Orange Peel Asheville, North Carolina
Sep 29 2007 8:00P
Variety Playhouse Atlanta, Georgia
Oct 1 2007 8:00P
Revolution Ft. Lauderdale, Florida
Oct 2 2007 8:00P
House of Blues Lake Buena Vista, Florida
Oct 4 2007 8:00P
Republic New Orleans, Louisiana
Oct 5 2007 8:00P
Warehouse Live Houston, Texas
Oct 24 2007 8:00P
The Brickhouse Phoenix, Arizona
Oct 25 2007 8:00P
Troubadour Los Angeles, California
Oct 26 2007 8:00P
Epi Center San Diego, California
Oct 27 2007 8:00P
Glass House Pomona, California
Oct 28 2007 8:00P
Cellar Door Visalia, California
Oct 30 2007 8:00P
Bimbo’s San Francisco, California
Nov 2 2007 8:00P
Doug Fir Portland, Oregon
Nov 3 2007 8:00P
Crocodile Cafe Seattle, Washington

tori on a hot mess

Britney, they set you up
But you drank from their cup
Britney, they set you up
Oh, but this is what it looks like, love,
This is what is looks like

When a star falls down
When a star falls down

Go here to listen.

Britney’s Act Fires Up Tori


Daily Telepgraph
September 15, 2007

US songstress Tori Amos felt so strongly about the vehement public reaction to Britney Spears’ performance at the MTV Video Music Awards this week she has penned a tune in her honour.

The 44-year-old also queried why Spears — who had reportedly been drinking before she took to the stage — was even allowed to perform.

“I don’t know any of my contemporary male artists who have been allowed to go on,” Amos said. “I’ve known guys who have been drunk or on something and they get pulled, they’re just not allowed to go on.”

Amos says her song, unveiled at her Melbourne show on Tuesday, aims to balance Spears’ fall from grace.

“There are two sides to it,” she said. “There’s the ratings and then on the other side, maybe it’s easier to let her hang herself.”

Amos says, unlike performers such as Madonna, the Disney school of pop stars had only their image to sustain them both professionally and personally.

Ode to Britney

By Bronwyn Thompson
September 14, 2007 12:00am

SINGER-songwriter Tori Amos sang an off the cuff song about Britney Spears’ spiraling life during one of her Australian concerts this week.

Amos performed the song in Melbourne on Tuesday, in the aftermath of Spears’ disastrous MTV Video Music Awards performance.

“I came up with a song that I think shows both sides. Because she did set herself up, as well,’‘ Amos said.

Spears had reportedly been drinking before her performance, and had spent many nights prior to the show out partying in Las Vegas.

“When you come out of the Disney system, you’re so sheltered from how things really are,’‘ she said. “Sometimes these people – it’s not just Britney, there are a few of them – aren’t able to function. They just don’t know how to.’‘

The 44-year-old artist also cites Spears’ rift with her mother Lynn as a possible reason for the pop star’s erratic behaviour.

“If you don’t have a good relationship with your mother, then you’d better get a good relationship with somebody who fills that hole,’‘ she said. ``And if I put a restraining order on my mother, then I’m going to defecate all over myself -it’s just going to happen. But then you can’t defend me.

“You can’t defend people who shut the people out of their lives. We can’t make excuses for that.’‘

Amos recently told Spinner.com “You see a lot of women today – maybe in magazines – crawling out of cars and thinking it’s sexy,”

“(And) for the most part, you don’t hear guys going, ‘Wow! I am just blown away by that beauty or by that woman’s way. There’s something about her.’ No. Do you know what they do? They laugh. They laugh when we’re spreading our legs and crawling out of a car. It’s tragic. Ultimately, we demean ourselves.”

it's hot in herre

My mom sent me this picture in an email. Oh, Jan, you crack my shit up!

johnny apple

Last weekend Babe and I drove down to Nebraska City to feed out apple cider fix. I made a road jams mix and we headed on our way.

It was packed when we got down there from several different activities going about. We did see a very good looking glass blower. Too bad he had a seven-year-old daughter.

I like to pretend Babe lives in the Morton House. We would throw holiday parties there. She's also rockin' the brunette.

This tree has a face of an old man. One of my favorites there.

I was going to make a video of the trip, but iMovie is being lame and won't load any of the videos. So who knows if it will ever be, because it's a little funny to write about going to the orchard and not showing anything with apples in it.

Road Jams:
Hot Hot Heat - Elevator
Feist - Brandy Alexander
David Gray - This Year's Love
The Cranberries - Loud and Clear
Josh Ritter - Right Moves
Texas - I'll See It Through
Jenny Lewis - Rise Up With Fists!!!
Sufjan Stevens - Concerning the UFO Sighting
Damien Rice - Delicate
Rosie Thomas - Paper Doll
Eric Hutchinson - Ok, It's Alright With Me
Cat Power - Lived In Bars
Ben Harper - Waiting For You
Dolores O'Riordan - Ordinary Day
Travis - Why Does It Always Rain On Me?
The Cranberries - Dreams
David Gray - The One I Love
Modest Mouse - Trailer Trash
The Fratellis - Whistle For The Choir
The Whitest Boy Alive - Burning
Little Brazil - You and Me
Fiona Apple - Waltz
Art In Manila - Set the Woods On Fire
Windmill - Plastic Pre-Flight Seats
Damien Rice - Amie
Rufus Wainwright - 14th Street
Rilo Kiley - Science Vs. Romance
Timbaland - Give It To Me
Arcade Fire - Crown Of Love

jdrf walk 2007

So i uploaded some old photos and found some from the JDRF walk we did with my nephew Garrett. I remember it being a balmy day. A day of walking, low-carb foods and making friends with a clown. Yes, a clown.

Team Tarbox as we were called passing through the beginning of the walk.

This is my new 'friend.' I was skeptical at first of this person, but she was very nice. She also fist pumped it, so I knew she couldn't be as bad as I thought. Afterwards, she gave me and I heart clowns sticker.

The little guy couldn't make it to the end. He was tuckered out.

Thanks again for everyone who donated!


devil child

Today Amy, Heather, Krystal, and I saw Rosemary's Baby at Film Stream. I had to have Amy explain to me that the devil really did come to earth and rape Rosemary, impregnating her with himself (if that makes sense). For some odd reason that didn't register in my head...I still don't think it does.

So remember kids, stay away from old neighbors who may practice with craft. You may have an unpleasant visit from Lucifer.

birthday girl

Happy birthday Danelle. I hope it was wonderful!

Saturday night we celebrated at Hiro. And guess what, I didn't have peanut butter chicken!


the first

how you came
so randomly
in and around the mountains
your smile stopped me
it consumed me
first love
first fall
first cry over a boy
the first always has a piece
you'll always have that piece
you said, 'can i keep your forever?'
'yes,' i said
i wasn't lying
and you'll always have that piece
i have mine
on my shoulder
in my back pocket
your echo wraps back around
it resonates
oh the first love
i wasn't lying


I'm sure I posted this last year. But it fits, so here it is.



By far the best performance at the MTV VMA's last night. This is how it should be done.

*The video won't play here, so click here.

hot mess

I don't even know what to call this. She is well past a train wreck. So what to call last night's performance? Maybe this was the Grim Reaper coming to take her career away from her. Homegirl should have just stayed at home (or the bar, without her kids of course). So long Britney's career. It was nice knowing you.


what the f?

Baby Wee-Wee is the new doll in Europe. The infant is rocking some jewels. I'm just a little surprised they didn't go into more detail with the guy's guy. I find this a tad disturbing.


dream no. 1

I woke up from a phone call around 3 a.m. with Heather asking me if I could name a Trina song.

I responded with 'Da Baddest Bitch.'

The things is though, I was having some not good dreams. I had a dream that my MySpace came back - with all my friends intact, and this weird floral print/garden scene as the background picture.

I also had a dream I was the young Michael Meyers. I remember me and some friends (who happened to be older guys) were talking about knives. And then we all put on that scary mask and blue jump suits (this sounds like a bad dance video). The things is, I killed them by chopping off their heads. I remember my mom being upset with me. I don't think it was my real mom, but nonetheless, I had to go to a special school for it. Guess what - there just so happened to be two midgets there! I rearranged everyone's beds on the floor and they got mad at me. I tried to convince them I wouldn't chop anymore heads off - but that didn't work.

As a side note, the ocean was in my bed. With a little beach and surf boards too.


oh, the gays

Do all good things must come to an end? Just as soon as Iowa allowed the marriage of same-sex couples, they taketh away. Shame on you Iowa, rolling hills of corn and wheat. Sure you grace us with the Hawkeyes, but you sadden us with suspending a ban.

I was very surprised that an Iowa judge gave us the right to marry (even for a short while) in the first place. But as the conversation goes...

Me: Iowa is so ahead of the times.
Brian: And yet, so far behind.

I still have faith in you small square state. Let the queers marry and be merry. Don't be a hater.

her piano

hello, hello, have you had some Heinniken, hello
i haven’t yet
or i would *hic* fall off my piano stool
and everything would go horrible
i think i should not be allowed to do much when i sit at my piano
at my pianoi think that i should not be allowed to do much when i sit my piano
otherwise i won’t be able to keep my mind on what i’m doing
keep my mind on what i’m doing
and maybe i would fall off and then i’d have to crawl on the ground
and i have before
at some college when i fell off my piano stool
but i had not been drinking
that’s what’s so horrible
is i was totally straight, totally sane
and i could do nothing
absolutely nothing
so maybe i should i should have a drink
and you should pass me up right nowa Heinniken
but i don’t drink beer
so could you pass me up a nice Ch√Ęteau, maybe a Bordeaux
cuz we are here now
having our secrets
someone is smoking something nice
but, boy, i’d like to have it now, oh, hello
my piano, she’s not smoking
she gave up last week and so we have these hidden little things
she’s got her patches
don’t tell…the organ, they’d been having a fight
so she is sexy in her patches
but i may just give her some, a little puff-puff-puff-puff-puff
while i have a little bit of some Bordeaux-love
with my piano, my piano
she’s my girl, my baby, my lady
see i love this one, yes, my only one
*i’m such a liar*
i’ve got three of these and one’s at home
and one’s in Florida, so
i am flirting with this piano
she’s a new one that i picked up very recently
don’t you think she’s a loud one
my piano
she’s never toured anywhere
she’s only been on British air, heh
my piano
she loves this life
she’s just wants you to come around
from now til the end of December
and I’ll bring Santa
and I’ll bring my dolls
and we’ll be and we’ll see you all there

Read about her falling off her stool during Blood Roses.


come out fall
i know you're there
the summer is lovely
but she gets very hot
and way too humid
fall, you have pretty leaves
and crisp air
summer makes me sweat
and makes people smell
(oh, but never me)
so come out fall
we need you here
to drink beer
in our sweaters
with the fire on
roasting some s'mpores
because they're delicious
with all that chocolate
i'm such a sucker for that chocolate
so hurry up fall
babe and gina and i need that cider
at the orchard
in nebraska
i always buy two gallons
but never drink them
because i forget i have them
but i will this year so pay no attention
i'll be waiting for you fall